When You Feel Like You’re Not Enough As A Mom
When I first brought Eliana home from the hospital, my fear of inadequacy nearly paralyzed me. God and a brave birth mother had courageously entrusted me with this precious life. What in the world were either of them thinking? I would never be enough. As I rocked Eliana in the middle of the night, tears streamed down my face as I begged God to prevent me from messing up as a mom. I wanted to do everything perfectly. There in the quietness of my heart, I felt the Lord whisper, “Child, if she had a perfect mother, why would she need a heavenly Father?” and I realized in that moment I didn’t need to be perfect. In fact, every time I messed up as a mom, it would become an opportunity for God to step in and show both of us His grace.
God doesn’t need us to be enough.
He is more than enough to fill our lack with His limitless grace.
Since that time, I have come face to face with my fear of inadequacy many times. When God meets me in one place of fear, it seems not much time passes until another area of fear reveals itself. It has been a long process, yet God has been faithful. Time and again when I doubted my abilities, questioned God’s wisdom in choosing me to be part of what He was doing, or feared I would fail, God reminded me: I am who I am and I AM Enough.
A Passionate Prayer When I Feel Like I’m Not Enough
Dear Jesus, help me rest in Your care. I choose to surrender to what You say knowing that when my heart doesn’t feel it, You will be faithful nonetheless. In moments of fear when I revert to striving, bring me back to Your feet, Jesus, so I can surrender once again. Help me desire Your will for me above anything else my heart desires and to trust You will keep me close to You, protecting me and shielding me from any storm I will face in this life. You will be enough. Even when I’m not.
God chose you to be the one your kids call “Mom”. He knows your flaws, your struggles, your doubts and your questions. He knows what makes you afraid, where you try and control and you wrestle to believe. He is not discouraged nor dissuaded from His choice to entrust His children into your care. He will be enough. More than enough. Trust Him.
Today’s blog comes from my new book Letting God Be Enough: Why Striving Keeps You Stuck and How Surrender Sets You Free and I’d love to know what you think….
Do you ever struggle with feelings of inadequacy as a mom or a grandmother?
What area of your life do you have the hardest time believing God will supply His limitless power to be more than enough over your lack?